Hi, I’m Sami Wiltshire, the ‘i’ is silent but people still seem to pronounce it. I’ve decided to start blogging because I want to start making Youtube videos but I’m not sure I’m at that level of confidence yet, which probably seems really silly because this is the internet and no one seems to care what they post online. So, I’m going to start off slow and start writing about things I think about while I hope, with my fingers are crossed, that people will actually like what I write and want to read more. You’ve probably guessed by this introduction that I’m a little bit timid. This has come about by years of being told that I’m not good enough. Not as good as my peers, not as good as I think I am, not as good as I should be. However, for what I want in my future, I need to get passed what others think and I need to change how I think. I’ve let people influence my opinion of myself for far too long, and it’s caused so many anxieties, and worries, and doubts in myself, that I will probably write about that quite a bit in the near future.
I was sat in the car with my boyfriend the other day singing as he was breaking speed and my stomach dropped quite suddenly and I though I was going to be sick. That was when I realised what my anxiety was. It’s riding a bike and feeling free until you see an upcoming obstacle in the way. You want to carry on riding and pretend it doesn’t exist, but it does and if you don’t stop, it’s going to hurt you. You think about it more and more but it’s too late now. You’re going to fall. I’ve felt like this my whole life, but I thought it was normal. It was just me. I know it’s ok to be afraid, but I also know that it’s very silly to be afraid of everything and let it hold you back from what you want. This is me not letting it hold me back. Piece by piece, I’m claiming myself back from the ruins that everyone else helped to create.
I’m going to apologise now, my dears because I realise this is an awfully long introduction, and a very deep introduction but in this blog, I want to get deep with you. I want to connect and I want to be able to reach out to those who can relate to at least one thing I write about. I’m 19 and a student living away from home. Home to me means so many different things now. God, I feel like I’m about to write my memoirs. Reign it in, Wiltshire, reign it in. I’m a witch and have been for about 5 years now. I’m a solitary eclectic Wiccan, for anyone that knows the terms but for the past few years, I’ve felt out-of-touch with my faith and I know that when I start practising again, it’ll do me the world of good.
I’m going to cut the introduction there. All my links are on this site, so feel free to have a little nosy around my work and feel free to get in touch. I apologise if this has been really boring or depressing or any of that jazz. I just want to keep it real with you. See you around!